i am having a hard time understanding why i even care about school anymore. it seems as if the more i care the worse i do in classes and the worse i do in general. i mean honestly, college is very much over rated. blah blah blah i know i need to finish, but in all honesty it is pointless for me to continue in this current pattern. i guess i just feel so trapped.

so instead i have adopted a new policy (much to the disapointment of my parents) that i will simply do my school work the best i can, which probably means that i will continue in a similar pattern or grades. so be it.

if graduate school is really going to simply look at my grade and ONLY my grade then that will NOT be the program for me.

i want to write a thesis

i want to graduate from college

i want a job this summer

i want an apartment and a kitten too

i will live off campus in the fall

i will not accept not going abroad