a lot has happened to me since october. i left my first HUGE relationship and i am currently dealing with the backlash of that as we speak. i have changed my life plan, dramatically, at least three times. i went to cambodia and fell in love, passionately. then i dated a fantastic girl, who in the end, didn't work out. and now i have come full circle.

i am headed to cambodia shortly...ish. and i am excited beyond belief. instead of going abroad now, i am going later. i am headed home for a year after cambodia, probably. and i am damn excited.

and as my friends graduate i will return to smith, for one last semester.

and why is all of this important? in fact, it isn't. uncanny huh? what is most important now is that i learn from the mistakes i have made, and i stop making them. i have to keep myself in tact. and for once, its coming together. nothing seems out of place, give or take a thing or two. and for once my heart beats rhythmically, rather than sporadically.

now if only the one thing i miss most would resurface.