i haven't felt adrenaline like i did tonight. my chest heaved and now i quite literaly can't breathe. and yet i feel more alive than i have in a long time. now if only i could make the room stop spinning.

also, its amazing how close to losing it one can get without actually losing it. when i just started learning to breathe, i lost the skill and was rendered completely useless. and then i snapped and realized it can't all be so bad.

once you return to reality the world seems so crystal clear. and at the edge, when everything looks blurry and confusing, right when the vertigo starts to kick in and you think you might fall you realize that flying is altogether too possible. the sudden clarity is rather enlightening. so here i stand looking towards the light at the end of the tunnel, realizing its brighter than i ever thought it could be.

i have a place to be this summer

i have support from the loved ones of my life

i need to dance all the time