when everything is dreary and grey is when the world seems to make the most sense to me. the clarity i find beneath billows of rain is rather intense.

positive updates in my life...my two mentors in the world have on seperate occasions given me some positive feedback and i have heard through the grapevine somethings that are rather positive too. numero uno would be none other than the oppressor himself, also known as sir garfield. he thinks i am smart! amazing! the man who rips me to shreds every chance he gets actually thinks i am intelligent. and coming from him this is a huge deal to me. so maybe he thinks i am a bit lazy, but he thinks i am smart. numero deux, the other oppressor of the dancing variety brought me up in his comp class today stating that i am a "fantastic dancer of high caliber, and that he misses me in his classes!" IMAGINE THAT!!!!! i am pretty much as content as i could be currently.

and at the same time i am getting the best grades i have ever received during my college career. its a relief.

the big thing is still coming...i just wish it could come faster.

and to gridlock, who is the mysterious poster on my blog, your nickel was taken to heart. i appreciate your reading of my blog.