illumination night

was one of the most beautiful things i have ever seen. for once i may be happy that i attend smith college. but the elation that i feel from this evening will probably only last for a few hot seconds. but luckily i am out of school for a few months. being on campus, without the stress of classes, has turned out to be an ok deal.

i truly think i have never felt as lonely as i do tonight though. something about the candle lit cmpus that screams romantic. and unfortunately, i am way beyond being able to be romantic with anyone.