so here it is. the days i began breaking down...and now i am smack in the middle of them, waiting for them to end. i don't think i have gone more than 24 hours without crying. between the dreams, the conversations, and the general stress and duress i feel, i am not exactly at a functioning capacity. i will be looking forward to the day that it all falls back into place as it should. right now i feel unhinged.

don't get me wrong, i will be fine. i am a fighter, that is what i do.