recap post of 2005
this year i...
went to thailand in january where i met two amazing people in the guangzhou airport (china) and after the tsunami my travel companion decided to go join the two people we met in the airport instead. we ended up in cambodia, my home away from home, where we traveled all the way to siam reap to see ankor wat. we then ended up in vietnam with lots two students from galaudet university.
second semester is a blur. february was interesting. i took cold showers for three weeks after i got back to massachusetts. the culture shock was ridiculous, and being home was the worst thing ever.
march was a huge month. i officially broke things off with a love of my life. and i went to italy and france with my family. we travelled by car throughout the countryside of italy. when i returned home from italy, i was picked up at the airport by someone really important. we started dating again, after a brief stint of dating earlier in 2004....(not the person mentioned above). she wasn't ready. i wasn't ready.
april was hell month. the THESIS was due and i watched my new relationship fall into shambles. everything went wrong. i started chain smoking, drinking excessively, and tried to hide behind a mask and pretend to be happy. we broke up. (break up number two of the year)
may was similar. i finished the semester finally. i went home to colorado where i started to heal and become whole, all on my own, again. it was a rough month...but nothing in comparison to what was coming.
june was the begining of my summer internship with the summer theatre group. i have never worked so hard and been so loved and hated all at once. i was offered an amazing person's love and said no. i had my first roommate ever, and i didn't even hate it.
july i was offered love again but by my ex....another strange moment in my life. (break up three) the theatre kept going. i went into a darker place but had to keep my chin up. i realized i should have stayed home instead of doing the internship. i wasn't ready for the intensity of the place, but i think it was good for me.
august...the end of new century theatre. i said goodbye to analise, who i adore. i went to visit my grandmother at her summer house. i had the time of my life travelling across the country (TWICE!) with my mother. we went through canada, and some of the most boring countryside in the united states. (aka ohio, indiana) i asserted my independance and traveled to visit friends, by car, on my own. each scattered throughout the midwest. i went home. i started school again. i was a part of pre-orientation...i met you.
september. i dated HER. she turned my world upside down. i wasn't ready for what she had to show me. i wasn't ready to see myself the way she did. i couldn't do it. she was amazing. but i couldn't....and i wouldn't. my first smith theatre experience....i assistant stage managed and met m.lyons. who became one of my nearest and dearest friends. i met tay, who changed my life.
october. break up number four. random encounters. i went home to visit my grandmother. she died a few weeks later. i met ann. i couldn't let go.
november. another new century show. full time work. stress beyond my wildest imagination. more love. love here...love there...love everywhere. AH! thanksgiving at home with m.lyons. seeing my best friends, skiing. fun times.
december...finals, leaving for india. best grades i have ever had in my life. happiness...confusion. but happiness. travel is on the horrizon. new year on the horrizon. the L word season three starting. lots of reason to celebrate.
went to thailand in january where i met two amazing people in the guangzhou airport (china) and after the tsunami my travel companion decided to go join the two people we met in the airport instead. we ended up in cambodia, my home away from home, where we traveled all the way to siam reap to see ankor wat. we then ended up in vietnam with lots two students from galaudet university.
second semester is a blur. february was interesting. i took cold showers for three weeks after i got back to massachusetts. the culture shock was ridiculous, and being home was the worst thing ever.
march was a huge month. i officially broke things off with a love of my life. and i went to italy and france with my family. we travelled by car throughout the countryside of italy. when i returned home from italy, i was picked up at the airport by someone really important. we started dating again, after a brief stint of dating earlier in 2004....(not the person mentioned above). she wasn't ready. i wasn't ready.
april was hell month. the THESIS was due and i watched my new relationship fall into shambles. everything went wrong. i started chain smoking, drinking excessively, and tried to hide behind a mask and pretend to be happy. we broke up. (break up number two of the year)
may was similar. i finished the semester finally. i went home to colorado where i started to heal and become whole, all on my own, again. it was a rough month...but nothing in comparison to what was coming.
june was the begining of my summer internship with the summer theatre group. i have never worked so hard and been so loved and hated all at once. i was offered an amazing person's love and said no. i had my first roommate ever, and i didn't even hate it.
july i was offered love again but by my ex....another strange moment in my life. (break up three) the theatre kept going. i went into a darker place but had to keep my chin up. i realized i should have stayed home instead of doing the internship. i wasn't ready for the intensity of the place, but i think it was good for me.
august...the end of new century theatre. i said goodbye to analise, who i adore. i went to visit my grandmother at her summer house. i had the time of my life travelling across the country (TWICE!) with my mother. we went through canada, and some of the most boring countryside in the united states. (aka ohio, indiana) i asserted my independance and traveled to visit friends, by car, on my own. each scattered throughout the midwest. i went home. i started school again. i was a part of pre-orientation...i met you.
september. i dated HER. she turned my world upside down. i wasn't ready for what she had to show me. i wasn't ready to see myself the way she did. i couldn't do it. she was amazing. but i couldn't....and i wouldn't. my first smith theatre experience....i assistant stage managed and met m.lyons. who became one of my nearest and dearest friends. i met tay, who changed my life.
october. break up number four. random encounters. i went home to visit my grandmother. she died a few weeks later. i met ann. i couldn't let go.
november. another new century show. full time work. stress beyond my wildest imagination. more love. love here...love there...love everywhere. AH! thanksgiving at home with m.lyons. seeing my best friends, skiing. fun times.
december...finals, leaving for india. best grades i have ever had in my life. happiness...confusion. but happiness. travel is on the horrizon. new year on the horrizon. the L word season three starting. lots of reason to celebrate.
posted by Mak at
2:15 PM
1 Comments:
Know that I feel blessed to have been and still be a part of your amazing life. I will never forget the beginning of us, although I may try to forget, or at least not dwell on in any way, the end. Staying up all night with you and talking about Los Alamitos woke me up inside after that hellish summer, and even though my semester sucked big time, the only truly good moments were pretty much the ones I spent with you. Take care, and I'll call you for the New Year. Love you sweetie.
--Amanda
P.S. I'm glad you like the hair. Told you I'd be a little emo boy.
: )
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