the world once again makes sense. my whole life is set before me and my major in college is slowly taking shape. which is a warm change, one that i am ready to embrace.

yet this leads to a single most vexing issue. i don't care if i graduate from college, which is a horribly surprising thing for me to be saying considering i have spent so much of my life caring about it. i really just want to see the world, and i don't want to start tomorrow i want to start now. so it comes to an interesting point...what do i do? do i stick it out and try to graduate or do i simply move on. i'm over college that is for darn sure. i don't want anymore professors saying 'you could be such a good student if you applied yourself.' 'you are so smart, you are just lazy.' well i am not lazy and i am intellegent so really it just comes down to the fact that i dont' want to be in college anymore. i want to be in grad school. so maybe i will just disappear into the world and write my thesis without an advisor, and move on into the world without my degree. or maybe not.