Spring is a big joke

yesterday the snow began its thaw, the temp spiked to a tolerable 45 degrees. it was beautiful and sunny and everything seemed at peace. it was the best day i had seen in a long time. i breathed a stronger, clearer air without any care in the world.

yet out of the blue it began to snow again and i feel robbed of the spring that never came. the same way i feel robbed in a lot of ways currently. i simply feel overwhelmingly cheated out of life right now. cheated out of my job...out of love...out of going abroad...out of friends. yet i am surprisingly optimistic at this point which is great news.

soon enough i will be in rome and in paris. paris is a healing place for me and i am looking forward to it. promtly following that will be grace's visit. the fact that grace is coming is simply fantastic. she is simply amazing and i look forward to every visit of hers. it will be a beautiful next few weeks...i can feel it.